this is the end (my friend)

it's all crashing down
and i hate you.
you've won
and i'm broken.

you've stock-piled millions of my memories

the thing is that we've saved our lives together
been through more troubles than strictly necessary
given up on things that made no sense
(strictly speaking, life makes no sense,
but we had the wrong minds at one time
to give up and get out and then wake
up smiling.)
you have a heartbeat
and that's good enough for me.

things keep swirling in unmistakable patterns
and i wonder how fast we're going
that it all seems like one big blur
(waiting for cheesy valentine's day cards
or christmas carols from way back when.)

your fingers have calluses
(and your hands are so small.)

the smile lines won't go away
no matter how little sleep i get.